Ok, so I'm feeling a little depressed that I will not be heading out to Chaminade tomorrow. For four years we all suffered through the hard times: a rapidly deteriorating football team, AP Physics, freshman hall.... But you know, those were also very happy four years. We got to learn all kinds of new things and be a part of a school community where the teachers cared-most of the time. I have memories of at least 40 football games, most of them from my box on the track, right behind those sweaty boys. I have memories of the school plays from the audience, cast, and crew perspectives. I will never forget my years at Chaminade. I can't believe how much time I wasted wishing that I would reach this point; that I would be heading off to college (yet again). I'm scared to go away this time. In the summer, I didn't really have time to think about it and when I did, it was still a novelty so I was excited. True, I did have a minor breakdown in Wal-Mart the first time around, but this time I don't even get that. I have to go all by myself with no family to see me properly set into my dorm. I'm all alone. All by myself. There is no one here beside me... ok enough Spamalot.
So, this being yet another new beginning, I have goals! Yay goals! I want to get involved at BYU. The things that made me the most happy at Chaminade were the things that got me involved: Cheer, Drama, Dance Concert, Band (OK, so I wasn't actually in band, but thats just a technicality). I am going to find new things to do at BYU, new learning experiences and people. I am going to get out of my shell for once and do the things that make me happy instead of just hiding behind books because anything else is outside my comfort zone and because I don't actually like most people. In short, I want to find things that tie me to school like my extracurricular activities tied me to Chaminade. I want a reason to be on campus from 6am to 10pm. I am going to enjoy every moment of this because in four years, it might be all over.
you just narrated my feelings exactly, except for the "going back to college" part. I definitely want to get involved. I cant wait so see what niche you mold into in college.
ReplyDeleteYay Goals!
ReplyDeleteand yes, you were in band
YAHOO!!! I support you and your goals.
ReplyDeleteI should also point out how jealous I am of all of you young 'uns who get to go to school. Bouquets of sharpened pencils....
ReplyDeleteguys, the getting involved is proving harder than i thought. I cant even try out for the all-girl cheer team(which i never thought i would even think about) because i dont have the gymnastics skills...i hate gymnastics anyway.
ReplyDeleteI really dont know what i want to do and everythign requires an audition