Priesthood Power

I try not to post too much religious stuff on my blog because I know that a lot of my readers are not religious and might feel uncomfortable. But I feel the need to share this experience - don't read this post if you don't want to.

The last couple of days have been hard on me. I've been feeling down on myself, which I don't like. I'm an amazing girl and should never feel like less than I am. I went for a walk today, which is the best kind of therapy if you ask me. I walked and thought and just felt impressed to do three things which I did immediately I got home.

1. Read my Patriarchal Blessing. In the LDS faith, members have the opportunity to receive a special blessing. They record it so you have the words with you always and are encouraged to read it often. To me, it is words directly from my Heavenly Father, telling me of my strengths and blessings and giving me guidance on what I need to do. While I was doing this, I started crying a lot. I couldn't see any of the girl who was talked about in the blessing in me and it hurt. What was I doing wrong? How did I change? This lead me to

2. Search the Scriptures. I rarely have big questions that need answering in the religious department. I know what I feel is important and never feel the need to question anything. But this time I did, and while I didn't find the answer exactly, in searching through those sacred words and reading words of Prophets and leaders of the Church, I was calmed a bit. I began to realize that my question couldn't exactly be answered in this life, but that I need to just trust that God has it taken care of and wouldn't make me miserable for any reason.

3. Get a blessing. When in doubt, turn to the Priesthood. Holding the Priesthood is to hold the power to speak and act for God and all worthy males members of the LDS church hold that power. As such power wielding individuals, they can give blessings for things like healing or comfort and council. I needed both comfort and council desperately so I texted my friend and two boys were in my apartment in white shirts and ties five minutes later. It is such a sacred experience that I don't feel the need to post everything that was said in that blessing, but I will say that immediately they put their hands on my head and said my name I felt the love and care of God so strongly. I was counciled on the things that I need to do to feel better and reminded of the helps that I have around me. Life gets hard, but I can do anything with the power of God behind me, lifting me up and reminding me of my divine worth and potential.

I am blessed to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I know that it is the true, restored gospel of Jesus Christ and that we do have living prophets now, guiding us to return to Heaven. I know that Heavenly Father is real and knows me by name (and you too). He knows my strengths and weaknesses and is rooting for me to succeed in this test called mortal life. I know the true power of the Priesthood.